Two forks in the road

I know its sudden but I think I need start fresh or basically back to square one again. I am running around in circles and I'm tired lol. I need something stable, something that that makes me happy going into work and confident in.

It's crazy but I've decided to start looking for jobs again. haha..2 jobs in like 3-4 months haha..what have I become. Its not that I am not happy but I guess it is not really my thing.

2011 focus:
1. stay happy, healthy and fit physically and mentally
2. save up as much as possible
3. hang with the famailia more
4. hang out with friends

Night.

郑欣宜 - 有故事的人

Been feeling a little down lately and I think it is like a mix of a bunch of little things but I know I'll get over it........... a bit of time and music will heal all. I think it will take some mini changes here and there for a future to happen but it just seems like only half of your foot is in or rather half of your foot is hesitatingly in. At that current moment, it did have a little sting but now I am sorta like whatever.

2010 is almost over and what have I learned? A lot but the main thing is : "there are some things that you don't wish for but can happen to you or be said to you but as long as you can get yourself back up after being pushed down several times then that is all that matters. Confidence is key. " Every year I always say to myself to make it better than the last and no difference for 2011 as well. I'm hoping for better in 2011. No more being silly girl anymore.

On a happier note....I saw this in People magazine and I am so very happy for her.Love her style, attitude and changing for the better for herself...


Just hope I don't see her in anymore tabloids.......

Off to work tomorrow....selling things...bleh.

It's that time of the year again...woo not.

I'm usually not bitter around the holiday season but I don't know why I am this year and can't wait till the holiday season is over lol. I bet I say this now but when it is over..I will think otherwise. I think I know what it is though.....


Last night, I went over to a friend's Christmas party and the turn out was pretty good. I realize now that my drinking skills aren't that bad.



Going to be working quit a bit this week...BLEH!

Rushed...

Just came back from spending a couple of days in Toronto ...it was nice but felt REALLLY rushed. Doing things that I don't normally do and also the traffic was a time killer as well.

Anyhow, I've been trying to search for a new night and day moisturizer because the one I am currently using "Shiseido" is breaking me out. I'm thinking that it could possibly be all the chemicals and parabens that is breaking me out and looking back I don't think it really worked well for me at all because when I stopped using it my skin would be fine. So...I was walking by and saw Khiels and so I decided to go into the store and check out Khiels. I've been using the samples for about two days now and I did notice some changes in my skin. It feels much firmer, skin cleared a bit, and also softer. I also got a sample for Mr. JC and he seems to like his sample.


However, I have a feeling that I will order from DHC instead because I have been using their samples as well and it seems so be worker better than Khiels.

Goodluck to me...

I can't believe 2010 is almost over. This time last year I was probably working or about to get off work then head out with Mr.JC. I don't know why but I have bad vibes that 2011 might be a crappy year for me but lets just hope it ain't.

[Fab] Ah, I really don't think sales is my thing but gotta deal with it for now. Atleast everyone at work is uber nice/helpful and the clients are really nice as well. The downside, trying to "sell" a product(making it sound like such a cool product) and getting the client to buy it is the worst for me....I'm suck at bs-ing.

[Trip] O.m.g, I cannot wait!!! First time with MR. JC and two other couples which I'm really excited about. The funniest thing is that Mr. JC wanted it to be just the two of us going which shocked me because he always wants to do stuff with friends. None the less, I am sooooo happy. We're both saved up for the trip and just waiting as the near year rolls around.

[car] my car is so beat up and it got into its first rear ending accident last week. People should really be careful when they drive....

[saving money] this is something I have got to do.....gotta budget and only use money on things I really need.

[exercise] this is the second thing I need to concentrate on.

On a happy note, a position that I applied for in the GOV sent me an email letting me know that I passed the testing!! WAHHHH!! SOOOOOO happpy!!! I honestly thought it was a failure notice but nooooooooooooope!!!! I will get results by mail and I guess an interview will be held later??hm?

Patiently waiting...

I feel like I am stepping backwards with my life and not progressing anywhere near I want to be. I never thought I would get back into a field that I wanted to avoid for so long. Maybe all this waiting is happening for a good reason but I'm slowly starting to get annoyed. I did so many years of school for what?!! AHH!

I feel so lost.

Hopefully, I can get back on the right track as soon as possible. It's sorta harder now because the people that I am working for really like my work ethic but my whole heart is not into it. I ain't young anymore but I'm trying to do what I can do get somewhere.

Ah...

Day one tomorrow at FAB.....I honestly didn't want to get back into retail but I guess all things happen for a reason.

陈慧琳 - 嫁 妝

My somewhat last day at B* and it was very fun and memorable....

I feel bad about one thing but it just came out the wrong way but I hope it won`t bite my ass later....I already miss the staff!!!

Confused.

-my lovely Punta Cana trip in May 2010-

How should one live their life? I want to live my life the way I want it to be but it is hard not knowing exactly what you want to do. I mean., seriously, think about it...for the next 40ish years I will be working to make my living/to make ends meet and etc....

I want to have a career/job that makes me happy considering my last job was so shitty and this current one is starting to land in the pits as well. On the other hand, I want to make money and tons of it! I know you can't always get what you want because you won't be able to see the value in anything if it is given to you so easily.

People keep telling me don't rush anything and even some of my older clients tell me that same thing. They say "You don't want your life to go by so quickly, do ya? Just take the time to enjoy life." I understand what they mean but haha its a dog eat dog world..gotta walk the extra mile.

I know I'm worried as hell know but I shouldn't.

ohh I did it......

I finally gave in my two weeks. I can't believe I already gave in my two weeks after only a month of working there. I honestly have to admit, its not a bad job at all but its just that I'm constantly getting anxiety when *who I shall not name* is around and really....everyone else does agree.
I know what I am doing and I know that I work it well but I guess some people are not appreciative at all. It's okay. I'm not looking for sympathy/pity at all...its just that you want to keep your employees and treat them with respect and not give constant bitchiness that can drive people away.

I don't think if this decision is right but I went with my gut feeling and I know things are going to turn out fine at the end.

Oh why why tell me why...ahha

I know its probably something not to fret about but freg man......why am I stuck home on a Saturday night?!?! BCUZ I gotta freaking work early in the morning the next day!

A Dream..............

A dream is a wish your heart makes
When you're fast asleep
In dreams you lose your heartaches
Whatever you wish for, you keep
Have faith in your dreams and someday
Your rainbow will come smiling through
No matter how your heart is grieving
If you keep on believing
the dream that you wish will come true


Decision made. I don't know why it is making me feel all so weird and really....why do I feel all funny?I'm doing something for myself and this is a risk I will take. I am praying for myself and I hope they people I have talked to will pray for me as well lol.

If you're down get back up!

Seems like most of posts lately have been about negative things..I really have to work on that.

Work:
Pretty frustrating. The best is not enough but what can top the best? I try but seriously I think the only thing I can do is lift myself back up and smile through all the nonsense.

School:
Work is taking up a lot of my time and I need to focus on school and get into a job/career that I adore. Time will tell but time is also money.

Everything else:
Content.

I just made a $100-ish purchase with VS and everything I got was on sale! WOO HOO! Sucks for all the shipping costs though but I figured its still cheaper to buy it online than to buy it here!! I know its funny. It's almost winter but I figured why not...buy once wear forever right? haha

I need to go on vacation.

BAH.

I miss going out!
haha.

This job is killing my social life.

How do you ....

How do you suppose...........

When I'm busy land he is busy ..how do you find time to hang out with one another?!I'm getting that feeling once again but ya know maybe I am over thinking it too much or maybe he is just so caught up with the stuff in his life and it makes it okay for him to do what he is doing. All I want is him to be able to listen to me and talk to me but he is not there to talk with......

I'm tired. I need a vacation. maybe a new job too.

A.I.N.Y.....

I can't seem to get Gem Tang's song AINY outta my head.....very interesting song I have to say. I actually watched Mag Lam sing it first until I realized it was Gem who sang it originally. Both good singers!I'm so glad for music.... music is really like therapy for me and it has really helped me get through some ups and downs.

On another note, work is okay I have to say. Lots to do and lots to learn and also a lot of heat from others to take in as well. Although, I guess every job is like that unless you work in the government...haha. I think this will be personal reminder to myself : do not take that person seriously anymore haha there is no point and just move on. Also, I am trying so hard to save money and especially now since this current job is mainly physical work aka sweat and sometimes literally blood money haha and it makes me seriously want to watch my spending habits.

Miracles happen, indeed.

I think my prayers are being heard and I do really do hope that this miracle will happen and it would lead into something long term. Basically to cut the story short, I applied for the contract position about a month ago and yup...I received an email from them this morning and was advised that I passed the first level.

I don't want to jinx myself of any sort but having this would be a great benefit.

Oh boy.

There are some very rude and un-greatful people in this world. Honestly, what gives people a right to be rude/mean to others? I always wondered what the heck is going on in their brains or really...do they have one at all.

I know that I work in an industry where I will be approached by these types of people. Generally, I never speak bad about someone because I think it's just bad karma or what not. However, its hard not to be slightly affected by their rude actions/words.

I guess instead of stooping down to their level. You just gotta ignore and perhaps make it into a way where you work it to your benefit?

Collision with the mean

Yup, I had my first hand experience what R** really means.

I honestly thought it was taken out of proportion of what actually happened. All I did was do my job and yet still get a yelled at for doing my job. It's kinda BS if you actually think about it. All I did was bring people to their table and leave the desk for one second.

People need a chill pill.

I'm starting to think everywhere I go is the same. Either its the management or the customers. Basically, there are a lot of insensitive/un-greatful people out there and unfortunately we deal with these people.

Maybe I just need a vacation...........real bad.

Bambu day : 三

Day three of soft training : do not wear heels or if I do don't forget to bring spare flat shoes and maybe a foot rub will help...

The thing that racks my brain the most is the table settings. Although it's not entirely our fault because we were constantly given new re-visions and thus wrong table maps. I gotta start familiarizing myself to it asap otherwise my ass will be on the line. Another thing that worries me is the credit/debit machine. I know I have had experience from before but maybe my nervousness is just taking over. Other than that, I think everything else is okay for now and I guess I'll just wait and see.

On another note, I'm really getting behind in school and maybe its from working a lot lately and then feeling oh so lazy to do anything after work. I gotta get crackin' on it soon. I have two looooong ass chapters to read before next class.

Ohh, Aldo is having a "free shipping with a purchase of 75$/10% off - if you sign up for their newsletter". So I took advantage of this sale. I know I promised myself I won't purchase from them because their shoes hurt my feet and so I decided to purchase else where which I am very happy with. However, this sale wasn't bad and besides |i needed stuff for work. Oh well. Too bad we can only wear black to work so I gotta start shopping for some black clothes now..ew.

FOTD:


"No matter what people say, I like myself so much, I love myself from head to toe, No matter what they say, I am so proud of myself, so proud that I even wanna pat my own head" ---Kim Yoobin

Bambu day : #2

Feeling tres tired...

Started the day at 9am, I don't know why but I'm no longer good at waking up early like I used to be. I can't believe those days when I had to wake up at 6am to make it for a shift for 7am. One word : old and maybe lazy. Anyways, it's so hard to get up. Not to mention, I hate the cold shivering feeling I get when I wake up lol it just makes me wanna jump right back into the warm bed.

I got there and what I did pretty much the whole day with E and F was a whole lot of cleaning. I know the spaces needs quite a bit of cleaning but it just sucks that no one else came out to help. Tomorrow is the soft opening and I'm rather quite nervous because training wasn't really given to us.

I wish myself good luck and I really hope I don't fuck myself up.

Bambu Day : Uno

Feeling : nervous with a slight bit of stress lol

First day of training today! Basically got to learn how a restaurant is operated in different posts other than my own.
At times, I felt like it was a lot to take it but I know in a matter of time...I will understand and get a hang of it cuz its all pretty much the same but just ran a little different than other places that I have worked at.

Food : GREAT.
Staff : young/friendly with some awkwardness buts it is normal (seeing everyone is alil shy).
Atmosphere : very contemporary and chic and it really reminds me of alot of lounge places like Destiny or Ten Ren in Toronto. I like.

---- man I can't wait to go to Toronto for a few days! I really need a break from being on break lol.

Close to you ..........

I had a really strange dream a couple of days ago and I honestly was a tad bit shocked to have had that dream but I do know for one thing.......its dumb lol.

Well, I've been unemployed for a month now but I do have a temporary new job. Although, I don't mind having this break but I do know I have quite of bit on my plate to finish.

oh man - "I wish I was on vacation aka DP"

I wanna be a billionaire sooooo FREAKING BAD!!!

Why do things cost so much money....and why am I so poor ?!

I went into the dentist office today and all they did was do a x-tray scan and some other stuff and cost me almost 100$...holy o.m.g!! Not to mention...my wisdom teeth are coming out...so, I guess more money just being tossed out the door. Being recently unemployed and going back for a final semester for school..this does not sound good at all...

On a happier note, a friend of mine came into BBT today and I was really happy to see her and to hear the good news...she's expecting a baby boy!!Alot of my friends are either getting married or expecting and it scares me just a little that in a couple of years I will be doing the exact same thing....

Enjoy the rest of your evening.

=)

H.

What a weekend...

I just came back from camping at Algonquin Park(Two Rivers something..)and it was kinda fun. This year I really wanted to spend my bday at home but camping wasn't all that bad. My expectations prior to going were not good at all but it's actually not that bad.I think my main concern was its cleanliness and YES.. it was a very clean! LOL. If I had a choice to do it again? Probably yes.

omg...why cant i post pics on here ...wtf did i do?

Soul Food

Quality wins over Quantity.

I had to learn the hard way but it's a good experience.

Already September eh...

(Sushi - one of my favourite things)

It's been roughly a week and I am doing well so far. I never knew people actually cared but I'm glad they do. I think I need to step out of my comfort zone because I never know what I am missing. Scared? I am but it's something I gotta deal with.

Been doing a little bit everyday and just waiting for some responses. I really hope I do get something. I really do.

Hanging in there...

I guess some things in life happen for a reason. Maybe this thing that happened to me will only mean something better will happen? I'm scary not knowing what is going to happen later or if I will actually be happy doing it. I'm just hoping that I will be able to get onto something soon.

Speechless..

I've been so busy the last two months and craved for some fun! It didn't help either when most of my friends are done school and working/making money. I feel so behind and I feel that I have not accomplished anything and I'm almost 30.

I've been endlessly trying to look for jobs but I haven't heard anything at all. I am just starting to feel like discouraged and feel like I am going to be stuck in my current job for a really long time. I feel like I am floating in the middle of the ocean and trying to seek help but no one is coming.

I also feel that some people take my kindness to their advantage. I ought to really drop those people but sometimes it is harder said than done I guess. Maybe its not about ignoring things but rather to move onto with bigger and better things.

Inspiration

Thank you so much beautyQQ aka Queenie!!
Queenie is so very inspirational!!

Please check her out on youtube : http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=HrSZesAff6E

Seducing Mr. Perfect

I just finished watching Seducing Mr. Perfect with Daniel Henney and Uhm Jung-Hwa. I thought it was a totally cute movie! I know its been out for a loooong time but I though that I'd make post about it. I thought it had a very cut plot and the ending was just hilarious. I didn't think it was any bit cheesy or what not and I thought it was actually pretty well done.

Can't wait to watch the rest of his movies haha..

Lifting my head high and soaring through the sky like an eagle...

I felt so bummed out the last few days due to many things : work, school, bf and etc. Sometimes it's hard to see the light at the end of the tunnel when life is just so damn depressing. Too many things are racing through my mind right now and it's hard to focus on just one thing. I feel so behind. BUT..I am glad that I have friends who care for me and will drop whatever they are doing and be able to lean their shoulder for me to rest my head on. I have so many dreams and things that I would like to accomplish : graduate from university, teach overseas, travel the world, be a business owner, win a billion $ lol, take care of my parents...and mainly just being healthy and happy.

I will get over this as and I know I will climb over the mountain and be able to reach the peak!

HL.

Oh Daniel Henney

Oh Daniel Henney,

You make me tres happy =).

Thank You,

Helen.

On another happy note, some pictures that I took of the sunset..<3

Mackage and FF haul

A friend and I went over to RC to do some shopping which ended in a major purchase for myself.I don't think i will be spending that much anytime soon or else I will be broke and won't have any money left for my trips...=(

Here we go :

Artizias Mackage Leather Jacket and Feet First nude pumps. Both items can be dressed up and down and both were on sale!!

Well, off to class I go....

Lalallalala..

It's wierd seeing friends come and go. It makes me feel like is getting older and people are moving onto better and bigger things. It's very bitter sweet. Cathy, I wish you the best. Hehe, it gives me more of an opportunity to travel back to the motherland to visit you!




Life once again is busy but I'm trying my best to be laid back as much as possible considering it is summer time =).

I can't wait to finish up school and start a better job and better everything. Yup, i hate my job. I go into work angry and I get out feeling angry as well. I don't want to work for a company that does not care for the well being of their employees. I just wanna leave that damn place.

oh boy..

What a day!!

Lost my house/car keys well the bf's sister did but somehow I wasn't too upset. I guess certain things just happen for a reason. But now, I get a nice cool key chain! Anyways, I also rolled my ankle playing volleyball and now it is hurting like a biatch. Well, I hope the rest of summer turns out well....I don't want summer to end.

Summertime...

I have been going crazy on the summer shopping and I think I really need to stop. Although, my purchases aren't major but somehow my wallet still feels empty. I ought to really clean out my closest before buying more things. But I don't have much summer things to begin with...ahha oh the excuses that I can make for myself.

Dominican all over again...for 10 secs.

Well, I officially have to say that I have survived my 3rd earthquake. I never knew that it could actually hit me again but yup it did. The first one, I couldn't remember so much since I was really young. Second, hmm..I was on my DP trip and yes ..drunk I was. Thrid, at work and I was pretty much wide awake and conscious and so I really felt that one. My heart stopped a little and jumped a little all at the same time.

Well now...lets hope no more earthquakes happen anymore.

hmm...

I think I am getting old or something...I can't seem to navigate blogspot properly for some reason. I wanted to use my own background but ended up with what I have now. I really do suck at this haha..

The bigger and better things in life....

I am sick as a dog again...I wish I could stop being sick all the time. I miss being on vacation.

Work is stressing me out like crazy but I'm trying so hard to be as optimistic as much as I can and also trying to diminish any trivial nonsense as much as possible. I think that is one thing I have learned from this job(clients and management) is that I can't stupidity is hard to ignore however the best thing to do is not to take things too personal. It's hard but it takes sometime to absorb that fact that some people do not have common sense and there is nothing you can do about it.

Anyways,. my goal of this year is to just ignore the nonsense in my life and concentrate on "bigger and better things" - as my christine says.

Trying to re-live the good times..

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=TjWq-MS1fBM

Wishing I could go back there...really.

Love Love Love...

Oh Punta Cana..how I miss thee!!

I just came back from a one week trip in the Dominican Republic and it was fun fun fun!! I can't wait till I go back next year. I'm going to try to aim to go on one trip a year so that means spending less crap here which is a good thing.

I stayed at the Vik Hotel Arena Blanca and it was not bad. I think the animation crew made it very fun for the girls and I. I miss the crew already. I don't know when I will see them again but I wish them all the the best of luck.

Anyways, going to be back at work and going to try to be less stressed as much to possible bcuz some people just ain't worth it.

Sigh

I've thought this over and over again but I think I'm going invest in a home gym or keep sticking with working out a real gym. Basically, the conclusion is..I think I am going to cancel by membership and work out at home. I don't think I will be going all out on the home gym but rather just purchasing the items that I need.

Thank goodness there are really good fitness gurus on youtube and also the nice outdoors. Come Winter, I'm going to really need to search for that motivation. I've thought about purchasing a 20 class pass for Hot yoga but I don't think I will be doing that till come Fall.

I really need to start using my money wisely.

Goodbye GL..see u later?!

=)

It's been a long time since I last posted. I've been so busy with school and work..I wish life wasn't so routine like. Anyhow, I wonder if this time next year..I will be in Korea or not? I really want to do but I feel so antsy about it at the same time. I know the experience will be once in a life time but at the same time and I don't know why...I feel guilty.

I can't believe I am almost finished my degree! I really didn't think I could do it but yeah I am! No regrets!! Other good news? Well, I am PUJ bound in May and hopefully(if I save up enough) I can head to Asia in the Fall as well! Can't wait!

A pic with the girls -

Oh so tired..

Beautiful wall decor at a store that I went in...

Inspirational..

I'm not too old, I think. There are so many things I want to do but I feel like time is just running out so fast. I wish I was 21 again but with a more mature perspective on things. I really want to go to Korea to teach but at the same time..there are some worries if I do it...

I'm doing as much research as possible right now and trying to weigh all my options...sigh.

Going Away Party...

Over the weekend,we had a mini celebration party for a friend who is leaving to go school overseas..=(. It was a small celebration but it was a good one.

DHC...Thank You!

My DHC catalog finally came in! To my surprise, DHC also provided me with many samples! I wasn't expecting much but I couldn't believe the amount of samples they gave me. Thanks so much DHC!

Once I finish my Shiseido line I will def't be ordering from DHC.

Work has been hectic....so tired of doing the same things over and over.

Busy busy days...

I can't believe its already Feb 2010!

Time sure does flies!

Anyhoo, Mr. C and I went out just for a mini dinner for an early V-day dinner. We're not too into the whole gift giving thing so we pretty much made is very simple yet special this year. You know, just being together is the gift itself.

Well, my Urban Decay Alice in Wonderland Palette is here! YAY! I absolutely love it! The eye shadows are very pretty and stays on pretty where as all the shadow brands Ive used just smeared off pretty quickly. I'll do an update on the palette soon. On the side of things, Aritzia's "You snooze you lose sale" has been on for a while. I think I might go back and the boyfriend pin stripe shirt..$40? I also want the lumber jack style sweater too but thats $80. Ahh, I don't think I can spend too much anymore =(

New Year and New beginnings....

Hello,

I've actually had this account for so long but never ended up using it. I've been using Xanga for a while but I've decided to change to Blogger instead. This blog will basically be about the daily things that will be happening in my life..the good, the bad and the ugly.

Keep posted <3