Patiently waiting...

I feel like I am stepping backwards with my life and not progressing anywhere near I want to be. I never thought I would get back into a field that I wanted to avoid for so long. Maybe all this waiting is happening for a good reason but I'm slowly starting to get annoyed. I did so many years of school for what?!! AHH!

I feel so lost.

Hopefully, I can get back on the right track as soon as possible. It's sorta harder now because the people that I am working for really like my work ethic but my whole heart is not into it. I ain't young anymore but I'm trying to do what I can do get somewhere.

Ah...

Day one tomorrow at FAB.....I honestly didn't want to get back into retail but I guess all things happen for a reason.

陈慧琳 - 嫁 妝

My somewhat last day at B* and it was very fun and memorable....

I feel bad about one thing but it just came out the wrong way but I hope it won`t bite my ass later....I already miss the staff!!!

Confused.

-my lovely Punta Cana trip in May 2010-

How should one live their life? I want to live my life the way I want it to be but it is hard not knowing exactly what you want to do. I mean., seriously, think about it...for the next 40ish years I will be working to make my living/to make ends meet and etc....

I want to have a career/job that makes me happy considering my last job was so shitty and this current one is starting to land in the pits as well. On the other hand, I want to make money and tons of it! I know you can't always get what you want because you won't be able to see the value in anything if it is given to you so easily.

People keep telling me don't rush anything and even some of my older clients tell me that same thing. They say "You don't want your life to go by so quickly, do ya? Just take the time to enjoy life." I understand what they mean but haha its a dog eat dog world..gotta walk the extra mile.

I know I'm worried as hell know but I shouldn't.

ohh I did it......

I finally gave in my two weeks. I can't believe I already gave in my two weeks after only a month of working there. I honestly have to admit, its not a bad job at all but its just that I'm constantly getting anxiety when *who I shall not name* is around and really....everyone else does agree.
I know what I am doing and I know that I work it well but I guess some people are not appreciative at all. It's okay. I'm not looking for sympathy/pity at all...its just that you want to keep your employees and treat them with respect and not give constant bitchiness that can drive people away.

I don't think if this decision is right but I went with my gut feeling and I know things are going to turn out fine at the end.